I know- I just posted, but I have more to say and this is on a different subject. 


I went to an awkward birthday dinner, that my ex-best friend went to. I knew she was going to be there, so I prepared myself mentally. At least, I thought. 

It was INSANELY awkward. We were in a small group. There were only what...6 of us? So it wasn't like I could really get away from the awkwardness. Everyone knew about the tension, too. 

We didn't talk to one another. I mean...we were definitely civil but it was the type of conversations you have with someone you just meet. Quick questions, quick answers, a hi and a bye. 

I don't know. It's hard to just cut it off because we both want to go into the same career. So I think about her, when people say certain things, or things happen and I want to call her and be like, "OMG! Guess what?!" But...I can't. 

So, it that sense, I feel like I have no one. No one to get career advice from, give advice to, and talk shit about celebrities to.  Plus, that one PR firm I had that bomb ass interview with reps Christina Aguilera on and off. 

She & Christina Aguilera :: Me & Justin Timberlake

Could I call her and yell in her ear about it like I would love to? No. 

Sucks, right? 

So I don't know what to do now. Today I got the idea of just calling her, saying what I have to say, and getting it over with. Who knows.

I'm kind of a bitch. 
    -Too many people get intimidated by me. 
    - And you know what?! I just had an epiphany! 
    -I think I can sense when someone can be intimidated. So I then, I do it on purpose. 
    -HA! I'm so rude. 
    -Really though, I'm a nice person. I just have a strong personality. I think I get along better with people who don't have strong personalities for some reason. lol.
    -I'm sarcastic as shit, too. But, I love it.
    -I judge people. Why lie? Everyone does it. It's not a good trait to have. I know. And, it's not like I do it right when I see a person like, "Oh look at her, I bet she acts like this and that." You have to be either acting really stupid or like random for me to be turned off and create my own preconceived notions. 
    -IE: If you're fucking loud, ghetto, can't speak correct english, and you're in my journalism class, trying to get a spot on the newspaper and telling me how much you want to be a newscaster for ABC news one day....I'll nod my head and go, "Oh really, that's cool." And then turn around and laugh inwardly thinking that you have no chance in HELL.

I'm a dancer.
    - I teach Beg-Adv. hip hop at Via Verde Dance Center in San Dimas, CA. 
    - I'm on my school's dance company at California State University, San Bernardino 
    - I'm thinking about auditioning for High School Musical 3 (LMAO). Seriously, though.  
    -Once, I had this big ass dream that after high school I was going to become a professional dancer and work my way to the top and then dance for Justin Timberlake. As you can see, that dream crumbled lol. 
    -It was then that I realized that I wanted to make real money...consistently. I kind of regret it. :-( 
    -So...now, I just take class and go to conventions! It's fun! 

Justin Timberlake OWNS. 
     -My infactuation began like 8 or so years ago. Disney Channel concert with his bright baby blue wind breaker pants. LMAO. 
     -People ask me why I like him so much. I don't fucking know, I just do. I mean I know...it's just a lot. Once you've followed a person's career for 8 years of your existence...you can't just be like, "Oh I like him because...this."
     - I'm not crazy though- I've encountered some crazy bitches and I'm glad to see I'm not one of them.
    - I'm trying to detach from his nutsack though-gradually. 
            1. He doesn't pay my bills. 
            2. Yet, I'm giving him WAY too much of my money. 
    -I'm not one of those girls who think he's OMFG!!!111 SO hOOoOtTTT! He's not. 
   -Many will disagree, but I think he's insanely UNDERrated. I know there's more to his musicality and talent that JIVE records let's him do, or the media portrays. 
    - Oh yeah, and I've met some awesome people because of him!


College. ((California State University, San Bernardino))
    - Sucks. 
    - I'm not doing too well as of now. 
    - I'm doing great in courses for my major! GE's? Fuck that. I settle for C's. Yeah, not good. I'll fix it. 
    - Major is Mass Communications. 
    - I don't really know what I want to do. I mean, I know what I want to do. But, shit...Journalists don't make good money. 
    - So I've turned to Public Relations and Radio to fall back on. Next quarter: film! Woot. woot. 
    - I'm a news writer for our paper: The Coyote Chronicle. Sadly, we won't be online until next quarter, which means NONE of my shit will be on the world wide web for the universe to marvel over! 
    - Why? Because next quarter I won't be a staff writer anymore. I'll be Assistant Editor for the Arts & Entertainment section. Not that excited. I wanted to be editor. I understand the progression and succession shit, but the editor SUCKS and is completely biased. ALLL of the articles are about rock CDs and rock concerts. WTF? Not everyone likes that, bb. That's why I will overthrow him...nicely, of course.

Extracirricular
    - I know, I spelled that wrong. 
    - I've pretty much become obsessed with internships. Which is why I'm struggling trying to balance school and interning. 
    - I worked, not interned, for American Radio Networks. I got to be an indepedent producer for my own radio show that was broadcasted. That was super super fun, but definitely a SCAM. I wasted so much money to use out-dated stuff. However, I DID learn oodles lol. And how cool is having your own radio show, son? Dope, right? 
    - I interned at Levine Communications in Los Angeles. Don't recommend that one. It wasn't HORRIBLE now that I look back, but it was really unorganized and Michael Levine is probably the craziest and rudest mother fucker I've ever met. Buutt, I learned how to get thick skin. That's probably the most valuable thing I've learned. :) 
    -  I recently finished an internship at ID Public Relations. DEFINITELY recommended. So much free shit, and endless knowledge. Typical office shit, but it was great. Clients include: Amy Adams, James Marsden, Katie Holmes, Salma Hayek, Dane Cook, America Ferrera, Ellen Degeneres, Jennifer Hudson, Natalie Portman, Lance Armstrong (new), Tobey Macguire, Chris Evans, Kyra Sedgwick, Ben Stiller, Dustin Hoffman, Sarah Jessica Parker, Cynthia Nixon, etc, etc, etc. 
    - This summer I plan to intern at Sony BMG. I was offered the internship for the fall semester, but I couldn't because I'd already accepted an internship at ID. I was PISSED. 
    -After that, a radio station. My goal would be KIIS FM. But, that ish is hard to come by, yo. 
    - Then, Extra or Entertainment Tonight. 
   -Then, a magazine. I'm working on networking with a girl who's family member is the west coast editor for In Style. 
   - Oh yeah, I got offered a position at Colton City News as a staff writer. I don't know. Too much shit going on already, man. 
   -I'm joining my school's radio station too. Definitely excited for that one! 
   - Oh yeah...I'm a talent escort at award shows. I just started, though. I've done the 2007 Grammys, the 2007 MTV Movie Award, and the 2007 BET Awards(joke). I'll be going back for the 50th anniversary Grammys as well. :D Yay.

Radio Disney 
    - Yay! I work there! I'm a promotions assistant. 
    - Mickey owns, dude. Haha! 
    - Basically as a promotions assistant, I get paid to go to all these cool place in So. Cal in the "mickey mobile" and dance around and entertain the little kiddies. It's GREAT! 
    - Sometimes it does get annoying though. I can't even front lol. 
    - I had my first taste of being a DJ the other day and kind of running the show. It was definitely the coolest thing ever. Being on the mic, and hosting contests and stuff. 
    - So, I think I'm going to look into becoming a DJ. :-) 

Ryan Seacrest OWNS 
    - Not as much as Justin Timberlake, trust. 
    -But, he is my idol, nonetheless. And...*gasp* kind of attractive. 
    -He's my idol because he's a fucking household name now. Like the Next Dick Clark or something! 
    - I'm going to be the next Ryan Seacrest! 
    - And, I was listening to his show, like I always do, and he was talking about how he can't just have one job because then he feels like a loser. That's me! 


Okay, I'm done. I said way to much, and formatted this like a jackass. 

"I'f I'm going to steal, I'm going to be environmentally friendly about it." -Justin Timberlake

PEACE IN.

All four years of high school I rode the bus home from school. So, I was on the bus that rides straight up and down the major street that crosses my residential one. This ugly ass dude that smelled like feet, weed and cigarettes came and sat behind me, and then started breathing on my neck. He goes, "Do you have a boyfriend?!" I look back at him like WTF?!?! and then immediately said yes, hoping he'd leave me alone. But, no. He goes, "Well what the fuck does that have to do with me?" I just turned back around, completely stunned. I get off the bus, and this fool is <b>following me</b> down my effing street! After like a block of him following me, I just book it and start running toward my house. Thankfully, he didn't keep following me- he just yelled something out but I don't remember it.